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It would be one thing if I left this behavior on the road. But when I returned home, I would continue for the sake of expediency and spending time with my family. Rather than give up one hour a day to exercise, I would watch my favorite Food Network programs like Iron Chef and Diners, Drives-Inn's and Dives. My relationship with food boils down to a simple fact; all my life, I used fast-food to fill a void; often is was loneliness. In Norfolk, Boston, DC, San Francisco, I would have short-term relationships, and would often go out to eat. After having a family, quick eating became habit and convenience. Its time to change that dynamic.
Six months ago I began to cook more. As I began to cook, I found I enjoyed the experience and ate less than I did before. When looking back, I realized that anytime I worked in a kitchen (Navy, KFC, Togo's) I was at my happiest. I have earned two undergraduate degrees and an MBA. However I've have always felt that no job is beneath anyone regardless of education. And the idea of becoming a chef is something I have always considered but my parents discouraged. But as I prepare food, I can feel my relationship with food beginning to change. I find myself respecting it more, and seeing it as something that is more just fuel, but something that can change an attitude when made properly. It can make one healthier when prepared right, and can soothe the soul without clogging the heart.
Health and fast food aside, since exercising, I have felt happier than I have in years. The last two days at work have only amplified this feeling. Simply put, for the first time years, the various aspects of my life are all coming together in the way I have always wanted. Lets hope this continues.
